Oct
8
I just felt like writing, churning down my thoughts in words and publish them. In fact there is so much that I want to write, whirling around my head.
But every time I started typing, I deleted them all and closed my word editor, again.
Some things are not meant to be published.
Some things are not proper to be disclosed publicly.
Some things confided to me I have to keep them sealed
Some things I have to face instead of running away, again.
Some things I have to admit instead of pointing fingers.
And thus, this pointless post where I so want to dislodge all the secrets, negativity and bitterness but I couldn't.
Monday morning, I am back to office. But I sort of glad I did. I could run away. I pulled those dear ones near to me again. And exchange news I did. And I see that my life isn't the only chaotic one. And I got a blessing from her. And I wish I could help her to decide and pull her away from her tangled web. And I’ll be there for her when there is no one around. And rocking the world like he did. Or didn't he?
This is life perhaps. At least I am still alive. That's what I always try to remind myself, of the friend that passed away. I think of her face, her laughter and the way she spoke. She didn't get a second chance. I still try to grasp the fact of it even after about 6 weeks. When it ends, it ends. Period.
Everything is ok if you are still breathing, there are still things you can do and make it right. Or so I told myself.
And yes, I am still at stage 1. And so are you, rocker! I know :)
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i can feel how u feel,
sometimes when i typed something too personal, when i was about to post, i decided to delete it.
guess im not prepared to do that yet cos it make me feel naked when im disclosing too much of myself…
i understand that feeling too…
to me.. words just couldnt come out.. or cant be express out..
altho i dun quiet understand but hang on there.. my fren .. hahahaha..
hope you’re ok *hugs*
hey, cheer up ok?
Cheers and lots of muaks from me!
Oh dear, everything will be fine…
you’ve made my day… thank you!!! hugzz…
I know what you mean. Sometimes I don’t care, just close my eyes and click publish. Sometimes I try to write in a way that no one understands what I’m talking about but only I do.
annant,yah thats how i feel
janicepa, thanks! but i am alright
ahlost *hugback* much appreciated
jys, will do, hon!
neo, thanks dude..
monkeywong, yup it is.. i m ok
echophysco.. just have more lunch wif me hon~
grace, like i just did
r u ok??
don’t worry too much..don’t let ur live evolve around worries.
take care ok! =)
*hugz*
no, it’s not pointless.
it’s the creative juices flowing, so let it all out
huei, i am ok
just a little heavy yday but ok now 
Jeremy C, thanks for ur support ^.^