Jun
16
Birthday
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May this year birthday wishes will come true!
Jun
16
Spotting Squirrels~
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While walking in my housing area, I always look out for the little, agile little squirrel that move so swiftly that you wonder if you really saw it or is it just a thread of your imagination. But it is there, sometimes.
Once in a while, I could see them scurrying into a bush or drain, ever so quickly. And it never ceases to put a smile on my face. It is so rare to see a squirrel in our country housing area, in a city I mean.
LY, DT, I believe that squirrel brings good luck for my day. Apart from believing in science and google, seems like I do believe in something so absurd too. =)
Jun
16
It’s Coming!!!
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And I feel it sprouting.
Right at the corner, way at the back, thinking that I wouldn’t realise its existence.
But I did.
I felt that it was pushing, shoving its way out, however vaguely.
I couldn’t help but to feel it whenever I am idle, or not.
Trying to see if it is for real this time.
And I am anticipating the pain.
A little excited.
Finally?
Will the wisdom comes with it?
Why else would it be named such a way?
I have sort of been waiting for it.
Though at another corner of my heart, I wish it is just another fraction of my imagination.
It could be bad.
It could ruin my 20 months of effort.
It could cost me another bomb.
But now all I can do is wait..
And welcome it. 
Update : Suspecting of false alarm.. oppps.
Jun
16
Mad About Colors~
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Mad About Colors~
Is your life as colourful as my nail colours?
Jun
5
Stark Life
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Yesterday I heard of a tragic news.
A distance acquaintance’s brother committed suicide today; he was barely 19 years old. The surprising thing when I heard of this news was that instead of wondering why people would do such things, I sort of felt that it was things that sometimes people do.
I felt that I somehow could comprehend why this was happening and why people would reach this stage in life to make such decision.
Although I might not know what really was happening in his life for him to end it so abruptly, leaving all the loved ones to grieve over his death and deal with his issues, if any.
I remembered when I was young, suicide did occur to me although it was more to frustration and lack of appreciation and meaning of life (or thinking that I might get the attention that I wanted although it wouldn’t serve much purpose if I am just not breathing..). I don’t know but I always foolishly thought that if I am going to die, I might as well as use up all my money first. At one point I have over eighty bucks which I felt that it was too much to leave it un-spend and die. =.=” (irony, come to think of it now..)
Anyway, the thing is I felt that I started to understand is why people are in certain state of mind or would do things that once I couldn’t understand at all. (It doesn’t mean that I have less sympathy over it but just that I could more readily accept it and in less shock than I once would..)
Have I started to see the reality of life more clearly? Or has the protective, beautiful bubbles in my life burst, leaving me to the stark reality of life?
Well, I guess it’s time to put down my rose tinted glasses and face the life’s true colours..
