Oct
8
Whirling In My Head..
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I just felt like writing, churning down my thoughts in words and publish them. In fact there is so much that I want to write, whirling around my head.
But every time I started typing, I deleted them all and closed my word editor, again.
Some things are not meant to be published.
Some things are not proper to be disclosed publicly.
Some things confided to me I have to keep them sealed
Some things I have to face instead of running away, again.
Some things I have to admit instead of pointing fingers.
And thus, this pointless post where I so want to dislodge all the secrets, negativity and bitterness but I couldn't.
Monday morning, I am back to office. But I sort of glad I did. I could run away. I pulled those dear ones near to me again. And exchange news I did. And I see that my life isn't the only chaotic one. And I got a blessing from her. And I wish I could help her to decide and pull her away from her tangled web. And I’ll be there for her when there is no one around. And rocking the world like he did. Or didn't he?
This is life perhaps. At least I am still alive. That's what I always try to remind myself, of the friend that passed away. I think of her face, her laughter and the way she spoke. She didn't get a second chance. I still try to grasp the fact of it even after about 6 weeks. When it ends, it ends. Period.
Everything is ok if you are still breathing, there are still things you can do and make it right. Or so I told myself.
And yes, I am still at stage 1. And so are you, rocker! I know :)
Oct
4
2nd Visit To The HairDresser~
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It felt like Sat & Sun instead of Wed & Thurs during the 2 days Hari Raya break. On Monday I called Miko out of desperation to do rebonding as I couldn’t stand my fluffy and frizzy hair.
But my decision was well influenced when a good friend said it was too short and layered to be nice with rebonding.
And suddenly it hit me on Tuesday evening. Why not do colouring instead? My hair was pitch black and the hairdresser suspected that I dyed it black before!
And so, after getting approval from some girlfriends, I decided to change the appointment from hair rebonding to colouring on Wednesday at Miko, Prima Setapak.
Of couse, I used the 50% off chemical service which I could download for RM3.50 at Mystyle. I have used it last year for hair colouring and rebonding as well.
I was convinced opted for some dark brown for the base color and a lighter brown for highlight. I felt that the color was lighter than my previous colouring but it was more even this year round.
And the sissy hairstylist even did temporary straightening for me which I really like the effect after that. I should patiently wait another 2 months for my hair to grow before doing the rebonding. ^.^
And this time even after much persuasion, I managed to stick to my decision of no treatment. After all I didn’t really see any different with treatment after I did it on Wednesday.
The hair look OK in this picture coz it was after blowing at the hairdresser. But it doesnt look like this after I wash them coz I am lazy not good in hair blowing.
Here was my long, shiny, smooth hair before I stupidly chopped it off in March earlier this year to a short bob.
Oct
2
Bad Hair Year!
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I don’t know what’s wrong with the hairstylists. All they want is layer and shape! Even though I want straight and neat, they said it is boring. No style.
And then he couldn’t understand that I just want to thin my fringe, not on top of it. Which he stupidly did more layer for me. Even shorter. And it’s fugly. >_<
I feel depress even after splurging extra $ on the inner hair cuticle treatment which he said supposedly to tame down my frizzy, unruly hair. Crap. Ain’t no different. I felt that my Sunsilk intensive treatment which I bought at pharmacy does work better than then pricey treatment.
And to think that I have been keeping my hair for 4 months before going under the knife scissors again and he just snipped it off without second thought.
Now I felt 10 years older with the burden of frizzy hair on my head. Oh my, I even feel a little tired and aged.
It was a huge mistake to cut it short at the first place. Looking at my long, soft, straight hair in the picture doesn’t help. (/_\)
And yeah, I think I need the miracle of rebonding or straightening again.
The hell with fluffy, frizzy, layered short hair. The hells with boring straight hair that I don’t know why the hairstylists are so disapprove of.
I am going to make a different and this time, I decide!
P/S : By the way, Selamat Hari Raya Puasa! Maaf Zahir dan Batin. Happy holiday and drives safely!!! =)
Sep
29
A Rejuvenating Experience~
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I almost forgot how it feels.
The exhilaration of glancing it every now and then.
To feel it smooth texture.
To admire its lovely design.
To slip into it again and again.
To be delighted over a simple pleasure of a pair of new shoes.
Yes, I was a shoes junkie; notice the ‘was’ instead of ‘am’. When I was working in KLCC for more than 2 years, it was quite impossible to resists the temptation to buy new shoes every month, averagely.
On some months, I even get 2 pair of heels and it sort of rejuvenates my soul. It is all I need to have the high and happy feeling for a couple of days. All I need is a glance at the new shoes are parked at the entrance of my room so I could savour the wonderful feeling each time I enter my room.
But this year, I have been very good as I vowed not to waste unnecessarily on heels again. After all, I hardly wear heels now unlike in my previous office where I wore them at least 4 days a week!
Nowadays, 95% of the time I am on my comfort ballerina shoes or flat boring pumps or my flat sandals. Duh, it is boring but I feel less motivated to wear heels in this company and besides, I have to walk a lot. And heels are bad for my weak knee! And back too.
And yes, I haven’t bought any heels this year! Well, the pair of Nike sport shoes which I bought in US and the white flat pump from Singapore don’t count. Or the pointy, shiny, flat black shoes from Kuantan don’t count either. :p
I get to rejuvenate my soul last weekend with a pair of wedges from Vincci at 20% off! Well, it is not a heel either but at least it is about 2 inches of wedge, which is the highest shoes I ever bought this year!
And yeah, it sure does feel good to rejoice the wonderful feeling of a new pair of shoes again. I couldn’t help but to slip my foot in it again and again. (^.^)
And I think I need another pair of comfy flat pumps. 
Sep
26
MNP, should I?
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I am one of those smart consumers that are always well aware of those call rates and charges as I know how good those companies are in slashing the wallets of their loyal customer with their small prints and terms and conditions applied.
Or so I thought. I am trying to optimize their call rates and benefits at all time.
So, yesterday night I was making a call to a number which is not in my Active 10 and I wanted to know how much I will be charged.
While browsing the online shop to see the cool daypacks and thinking which one I should get, I checked my credit balance on my phone. I had $36.25. I made exactly 5 minutes call to another maxis number. Well, maxis to maxis is 39 cents; written clearly in their website with no asterisk whatsoever.
And after making that 5 minutes call, I checked my balance again and was dumbfounded when it deducted $6 from my phone credit. What the hell!
And so I do what I do best. I called up their customer service with my most professional and no-nonsense voice. I kept my cool and avoid raising my voice. A very professional customer indeed.
I was explained by the polite customer service officer that I am using Total plan which will charge $1.20 for adjacent areas call which rate was NOT STATED in the website at all. The rate I which I have been referring all these while is the Hotlink plan which is a new plan and I need to pay $5 to change to it. Marvellous.
What is the different between Total and Hotlink plan? I asked.
The different is there is only flat rate for Hotlink plan (39cents to maxis and 49 cents to other telco) and you enjoy lower call rate at 36cents when you topped up. There are also no peak hours and calling to Active 10 is 15 cents per min. But if you are subscribing the Total plan, you have to pay whopping ridiculous $1.20 per minute for adjacent areas call and there is peak hour for Active 10 numbers.
And I decided that I would be better off with Hotlink plan. He kindly told me how I could switch to Hotlink plan by entering *108*2# which will cost me another $5. Fine.
And I did. The message I got for tying to switch the plan is : Sorry, changing to this rate plan is not allowed. Thank you.
And yeah, probably I should really make use of the MNP (Mobile Number Portability) and change to other telco. Give other telco service provider a chance since I do not have to change my phone mobile number. Loyalty with Maxis for 6 years doesn't really pay off, does it?
And yes, I am still a fair person as I give him a rating 5 (out of 5) when the customer service offer asked me to give him a rate on his service and efficiency at the end of the 10-min-call. =)
Sep
25
No Smoking!
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I am not really a fan of clubbing. To me it is just lotsa booze, loud music, dark environment, sexy ladies and very smoky area; which none of them really excites me especially the last one.
I remembered that my first visit was to a disco in JB while I was studying there. On my first step into the loud room, I almost choked due to the thick smoke and my eyes started to tear! But after a while, my repository system got used to the environment. But each time I came back from the toilet trip, the environment was so overwhelming again. >_<
Not to mentioned that I was practically marinated with smoke by the time we went home! Arrgghhh.. You can also see many beautiful women smoking and I wonder if they know the effect of smoking to their skin, not to mention lung cancer and other health problems!
Apart from the pubs that we visited a couple of times and the happy hours activities at Thai Club during my last employment, I hardly stepped into pub or disco anymore. Yeah, I am pretty good girl, ain't I?
My last clubbing to a pub earlier this year would be the one in at St James Singapore, which was also my first visit there! And I was astonished to find out a big different between the pubs there and the ones we have in Malaysia. Guess what?!?
There have this NO SMOKING POLICY in all the pubs and disco in Singapore! Isn't that truly amazing? I mean, I was literally saturated with smoke in the pubs here but it was totally cleared of smoke there. I really love the smoke-less place! And yes, Singaporean really follows all the rules, even Malaysian that goes there. Wish we have half the discipline here.
Some of my friends have to keep going out to have a puff which was like every half an hour or so. They are not going to stop smoking though there are many ways to quit smoking. Quitting smoking is tough but it isn't impossible right especially when you think of the benefits of quitting smoking.
Man, if Malaysia's pubs are anything like that, probably I wouldn't mind going a little more frequent. Yeah, we need a no smoking policy here too. Let's start with more smoking ban public places, shall we? No?
P/S : By the way, I received a sms yesterday where smokers are urgently needed!!! For survey, a short interview of 20 minutes and you would be compensated 10 boxes of cigarettes. Kidding!
It is 50 bucks. So, anyone interested I'll give you the number to call.
Sep
24
Just Rambling..
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God, I nearly forgot how awful Monday could be when you hafta work in the office. It makes the week seems longer and unendurable as well. Which makes me appreciate working from home on Monday even more!
I was denied of this privilege when my colleague from US came for this couple of weeks. And thank God, the 2 weeks is about to over soon. (^.^)
Anyway, last weekend was full of warehouse sales and flea markets. Well, economy is bad and I have to do with these. It was quite enjoyable especially with the odd things you found at the flea markets!
And I have finished the Skinny Bitching by Jenny Lee book that I rented a couple of weeks ago. Kinda hilarious and makes me wanna enjoy my twenties before it is gone in a snap!
Feeling a little b*tchy, I am up for another b*tching book : The Bitch Goddess Notebook by Martha O’connor which is supposed to be “Dark, compelling and not for the faint hearted”.
And yeah, I think I can use a little dark and put aside chick lit for the moment. And also my Cleo magazine which I think I couldn’t finish it on time before the end of the month.
And so, happy Tuesday! Trust me, Friday is just around the corner! 
Sep
23
It’s Not The End!
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And so I thought the journey of Bracie Ben ended two weeks ago when the dentist volunteered to take out the braces on my upper teeth.
And so I thought I wouldn’t have to worry about the food stuck around my teeth when I was having lunch with my colleagues or friends.
And so I thought I could smile unconsciously without worrying that if the other person is staring at my ugly braces when I speak.
And so I thought I could show off my teeth without having the metals stuck on it and take nice pictures of them.
And so I thought that the retainer is just a line of wire that wouldn’t bother me at all and I wouldn’t even notice it a bit.
But hey, I am so wrong!
The story of Bracie Ben has not ended and it is not even at the last chapter!
It is half way there though.
The dentist nagged me for not visiting him last week as he specifically told me, “Come after a week and I’ll have your retainer ready.”
I went back two weeks after that and the retainer is ready alright. But the thing is it isn’t quite fitting as I guess the alignment of my teeth has somehow moved a little!
It was more than a single wire thing and it makes me very uncomfortable!
A couple of hours after I put it on, I felt that I couldn’t talk properly. And I slurred like Jay Chow!
With the base hugging the upper on my mouth, how am I to taste food properly?!
I was advised to wear it all the time except when I am brushing my teeth. But hey, I guess I really gotta take it out during the
meal or else it is going to greatly affect my appetite; that’s the last thing I need!
Arghh.. I hate the retainer! (T_T)
I am still wearing the braces at lower teeth..
P/S : I think the usage of retainer is to stabilize the teeth position and preventing movement. I guess I have to wear for a minimum a year or maybe more. (/_\)”
Sep
20
Journey of The Bracie Ben~
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When I was just mere 7 years old, I remembered cheating the class teacher that I have seen the dentist as I was really afraid of stepping into the dentist room. Yeah, so you can imagine my phobia of dentist. I hate the smell of the dentist clinic and I totally hate using metal cup as it would remind me the dentist. >_<
But in Year 2006, I gathered all my courage to go to the dentist with my housemate for check up. For your info, I haven't been to the dentist for like 10 years!
And the rest was history when I decided to brace my hideous teeth once and for all (after years of nagging from my relatives and friends). And so on the 28th Oct 2006, I had my braces put on and the journey of the ugly betty bracie Ben began.
Apart from the food-always-stuck-between-my-teeth/braces incident, 5-minutes-of-cleaning-routine-every-night and the bracket-fell-off a couple of times; I merely sailed through the journey of bracing. Except for the first couple of weeks where I couldn't chew hard food but I could practically eat anything I want after a couple of months. (^.^)
And now I proudly declared that my bracie is finally out on the 5th of Sept 08! Woohooo~!!!!
At least partially, only the top braces. I guess my dentist couldn't stand me asking him for the 100th times when I could take them out and he finally volunteered to take it out on the very day that I decided not to ask. Just in time for my best friend's wedding too! =D
But the lower braces are still there and I have to put on retainers after this, for as long as possible, he said. After that I have to do post-crown for my slightly-darker-front-tooth-due-to-chipping and it gonna cost me another hefty RM700 (which he really emphasized how complicated and expensive is the material and thus an expensive process). (=.=)"
And yeah, that is about 22 and half months of bracing journey for me. No more hideous teeth! A process that I should have done 10 years ago but I couldn't quite afford it and lack of courage. Better late than never though! =)
Sep
19
Cold?
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I guess as a human being we couldn't escape socialize with the others, be it friends or family or colleagues at work. It is the basic thing that we have to go through everyday, whether we like it or not. Communication is essential in every aspect of our lives.
I guess I am not a great communicator, apart from the virtual world, where I didn't have much problem expressing myself. Except during the times I feel comfortable enough to lift the cold masque off.
But when it comes to real world, sometimes I rather/always be the one quietly standing at the back. Sometimes I am not sure on how to send a message across to someone. Even to my mom.
A friend once raised a doubt on me treating her like close friend as I failed to keep her posted about stuffs like I used to. Truthfully, I was taken aback by that and I didn't see it coming.
And it makes me think real hard if it is me that have been treating her differently. Much as I hate to admit it, it occurs to me that it might have been partially my fault as I have been carried away. I apologized. And with that, I want to make it up and I took my action. Or at least I did my best.
And it makes me think why do I feel less excited in confiding to her as usual? Why do I feel excited in confiding to some friends but not to others?
Some friends feel my joy when I share something good that happens to me. And they give me ears when I need to complain. They listen, they ask and they try to understand it.
I guess it is important as a listener to really listen to what the other is telling. That is what sharing is all about. They should share the joy or pain as a friend. Not listening only for the sake of listening.
What really discourage conversations are none others than cold response, uninterested listener or unsupportive statement. It really puts me off.
How do you keep going back to someone that is not really interested to what you have to say? Something that have been playing in your mind for a couple of days/weeks; only to have it coldly splash back into your face?
Why do you even bother to share when it is the news is easily waved off or returned with an unexcited remark or even sarcasm?
So try to understand why I am holding them close to myself. It might not be the right things to do but it keeps me sane and the relationship going.
And very well. I have tried. Let me breathe again.
Sep
19
Fly Birdie, Fly~
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I saw a beautiful bird in the cage this morning. And I was thinking how proud the owner might be as he owns several beautiful birds in the cages.
And I was thinking that these birds only live the cage. Although they are well provided but they will never know the freedom of flying around in the blue, blue sky.
Whenever I saw birds flying so freely and happily in the sky, I always thought how blessed they are to be able to be flying around freely. With the wind blowing against their cheek, err.. beak and to go wherever they want without worries, or so I though. And it makes me feel like I want to be a bird too! I want to fly!
But the birds in the cage will never taste such freedom and never know what they are missing. Then again, if they don't know what they are missing, they might be just happy in the cage as that is the only lives they know of. Is it so?
Well, it makes think. Human lives are probably just like that. There might be things that were really fun missing in our lives but we never know as we never experience or heard of it. Or worse things that happens to others that we will never understand their pain or misery. Yeah.
But then again, do birds really think so much? Or is it just me?
Sep
16
Yun’s Big Wedding Day!
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She was my first roommate in the hostel. I have been praying for her to come as I was so alone in the lonely hostel room on my own when I just went to uni!
After being roomie for a year in the hostel, we moved out to a rented house and she was my roomie for another 2 years. Next we had internship and after that we were housemate for another 5 months.
Yeah, so we were pretty close to each other and she was like an elder sister that always take care and look out for me. She was a huge chunk of my life during the uni year. After graduation, we went on with our path of lives but we never fail to keep in touch constantly. =)
And now she is finally married! I am glad she finally found the special someone and settling down! Well, I hope she would have a happy and loving life with the lucky groom! =)
It just feels a little strange that my good friend is now married and become someone’s wife. Someone that I do not know that well but pretty sure he is a good guy and will treat her right. I hope our friendship remains as strong as ever.
Well, here are some pics that we took during the wedding dinner at Batu Pahat.
Here comes the pretty bride and the lucky groom!
Let's take a picture of sisterhood~
